What? Where?

Hello Beloved,

You ever make a choice in the heat of the moment so to speak and then later think, “What did I do?” If you are human and honest the answer is yes. Sometimes we just need to walk through the consequences and every once in a while we get a do-over.

With my wife being sick for a few years I did a fair amount of the work of mourning her loss before her death. I had the experience 5 or 6 times of having the Dr. looking to me to guide the choice to bring her back or to let her go home. That is something I wouldn’t wish even on an enemy. Not a fun thing to do. It did however give me the opportunity to really get in touch with my feelings about losing my wife. I had a lot of time to process while she was out of it. All that to get to my point.

Soon after my Dolly went home I started packing up things in the house that are hers rather than “ours”. Due to the Covid crap going on and my physical limitations at the moment I am boxing things without actually getting rid of it. Every now and then something comes up and I end up diggin through boxes lookin for something I decided I want to keep. I take some comfort in that as I continue to pack up stuff. It won’t really be gone until after the estate/yard sale next summer.

Sometimes belief or faith is like that. You just go along not thinkin about it much trusting that it will always be there. Then something happens, you reach for your faith and it’s not quite there. Where did it go? What did you do with it? It didn’t really go away, just temporarily out of reach. Sometimes it takes more work than others to find the box it ended up in. Sometimes when you find it, it doesn’t look exactly like you remember. What choice do we have but to dust it off and reintroduce it to our daily routine.

Do you know what a flowering tea ball is? It is a delicate tea that when you first see it, it appears as nothing more than a dried up piece of weed. Put this little ball in hot water and it blooms right before your eyes. It appeared dead and useless but comes back to life to give you a soothing warm hug.

The world is full of plants and critters that can appear dead and gone only to surprise us when they come to life. I am learning again and again that’s what faith is like. When we ignore it, it appears to die but given the chance it can bloom again right before your eyes.

Where is your faith at? We all believe in something or someone. You may call Him all kinds of names but I believe they all speak of the same being. God, Creator, Abba, Allah, higher power…… Is your faith active or getting covered in dust in some corner of your life. Some times we have a bit of trepidation when we go digging in boxes we had previously packed up. May I encourage you to poke around a bit and see what you have packed away and could maybe use.