Mouse Trail

Good day Beloved. A while back when I was out walking with my pup I happened to notice something. A mouse or mole trail in the snow. Sometimes it was on top of the snow sometimes it was under the snow and there was visible dome over the trail and sometimes it was so deep that the only evidence of it was the entrance and exit points.

This set me to wondering what evidence do we leave behind after we have departed? Whether the “departed” refers to the beach, our work, a restaurant, or our life. Do we leave evidence of our being there in the form of trash or a “trashed” space? Do we leave nothing but footprints maybe? Do we leave warm memories and fond wishes for the people we leave behind? Do we leave “warm fuzzies”? Do we leave a legacy of some kind?

I personally am not in the place where I will leave a scholarship program or a fund to help under advantaged kids get to college. Mostly likely my beneficiary will be grateful my funeral is prepaid so they can at least go out and lift a glass in my memory. I hope that when I have departed, people remember that I was gracious, nice, kind, real. What kind of aura or feeling gets left behind in a room when you leave? What do people say about you when you are not there to hear it or defend yourself? Most days I would not care to hear what people say about me. My assumptions are that it wouldn’t necessarily be glowing, warm fuzzy words. That may speak to my own lack of self esteem rather than reality. That is neither here nor there.

Here is what I want to encourage you to ponder. Think about what you leave behind. Be honest with yourself. Is it better to leave an invisible trail like the mouse trail deep in the snow or the spot on the beach littered with trash? Maybe we should aim for something in the middle like the mouse trail with the dome of snow or softly trod path on top of the snow. Now if the picture of a cute little mouse doesn’t work for you, please feel free to replace it with something that does. I think about this kind of stuff every now and then. Probably because I have a lot of stuff to deal with since my wife passed away. She was my life and for that reason I will deal with the stuff. However I don’t want to leave a bunch of “stuff” for someone to deal with when I go. Mostly ‘cuz I won’t leave anyone that loves me. So for me I want to leave a soft little trail. Enough to know I was here but not enough to leave a pile for someone else to clean up.

Remember Beloved these are simply my musings.

Beloved, have a lovely…..

Mona LangmaackMelin