Another Look

Beloved, I find myself having to apologize again for a missing post. I am sorry..

Hello Beloved, this week past I have been thinking about things left behind or maybe more specifically people left behind. I am certain that if you are a living being somewhere in the world there is another living being that hurt you, whether they knew it or not. We as a people tend to think that we are strong and tough and we can handle ourselves. In reality we tend to be better at masking the truth rather than actually being tough. Sometimes the smallest thing said without any ill intent whatsoever cuts us to the quick before we even realize we have been cut.

Then again sometimes people just don’t think and say talk to hand or turn their back on you without really considering the consequences. Speaking for myself, I have been hurt way more than I care to admit. Those who hurt us the deepest are those who we think are supposed to be the one we can trust the most. In my case those people are people who self identify as Gods chosen. Now giving them the benefit of the doubt, maybe they didn’t know what the were doing.

Nah, they knew what they were doing. They just thought they were extending the righteous indignation of the Almighty. At least some of them did. The saddest thing about all of this is that the words and actions of a few tend to paint the organization a disgusting shade of “ I can’t be trusted”. In our heads we know that we shouldn’t paint everyone with the same paintbrush. It is as unfair to us as it is to them. We know that there are a few who are truly trustworthy.

I am going to ask something really hard Beloved. Are you ready for it? Reach out again to one whom got left behind through no fault of their own. It is hard and scary. I know that for certain because I recently did it for myself. I took a deep breath, pulled up my big girl pants and reached out. You know what, I am glad I did. We met and it was almost like I had never stepped away in an effort to protect myself. Be brave Beloved, be brave.